Around 2:00am I woke up nauseous and unable to keep any food or liquid down or in. By 5:00am I fell when trying to get to the bathroom. By 5:30 my boss was at my door and telling me he’d drive me to the hospital. My boss stayed with me the entire time I was in the hospital, which was around five hours. After some tests and several hours on an IV, I was released. Since then my boss has brought me food, explained my medication, and generally been supportive and present. I just slept for about 8 hours, and found another message asking if I needed anything.
Considering how terrible this day was, it was made infinitely better by having someone around who acted as a proxy parent. The Korean medical system also get a big thumbs up, because even though there is apparently a doctor’s strike going on, my care was efficient and courteous.
Also, I know I will not be eating clams again for a long time.
“There is perhaps no phenomenon which contains so much destructive feeling as ‘moral indignation,’ which permits envy or hate to be acted out under the guise of virtue.”—Erich Fromm, Man for Himself: An Inquiry into the Psychology of Ethics, 1947
“The fundamental philosophical principle of Buddhism is that all our suffering comes about as a result of an undisciplined mind, and this untamed mind itself comes about because of ignorance and negative emotions. For the Buddhist practitioner then, regardless of whether he or she follows the approach of the Fundamental Vehicle, Mahayana or Vajrayana, negative emotions are always the true enemy, a factor that has to be overcome and eliminated. And it is only by applying methods for training the mind that these negative emotions can be dispelled and eliminated. This is why in Buddhist writings and teachings we find such an extensive explanation of the mind and its different processes and functions. Since these negative emotions are states of mind, the method or technique for overcoming them must be developed from within. There is no alternative. They cannot be removed by some external technique, like a surgical operation.”—The 14th Dalai Lama, Dzogchen: The Heart Essence of the Great Perfection, 2004